It all started with your smile – the charisma of which was more assuring.A very way of getting positivism around you;it had all sorts of comfort that one would look for. I had known you for a very long time , and in around then , yeah a feeling slowly started blooming inside me.
Like a flower blooming under sunlight and the rain, this thought of yours in me had the power to take it all the way.Both of us were comfortable with each other , I had the feeling that we could work things out, but alas!!! fate had other plans. In the due mean time, your behavior started changing.Your character which I had high regards and respect for,slowly started fading away. I was finding it hard to digest ,as you were fast falling from the normal person who i loved to spend time with.Although I kept quiet, I was observing all these behavioral changes happening; i considered the relation with you to be of far more importance.But the situation never got better.
Your attitude which was your biggest strengths took a big slope down hill as you started behaving immaturely.Perhaps, it might have been because of the fact that i loved you that forced you to act likewise. I’m sorry.
There were a lot of misunderstandings brewing, and you never took the effort to or never even tried to get things back on track.You had started distancing me from all your work citing excuses which was never a good sign.In spite of all this ,I could see your good heart through, your understanding nature had gotten you a very strong place deep inside me.
I wanted to see you as a friend solely,because for me it is all these little things which mattered.But you hit me straight in the heat; the once understanding girl you were no longer.
You were manipulative , you cherished at every moment of it. I was all but letting it go by. We had a lot of fights, the feeling of being ignored and frustrated pushed me to my limits too. It was time to break off and it happened.
It has been quite a while since we had even spoken after that incident. I do not know if you still care for me or even try to , but that understanding nature and loving and calm oneself , is still hard to forget; though you have hidden it nicely from me.GOD might have had a plan after all, maybe i was supposed to find the hard way. I sort of did.I keep asking this question to the Almighty almost every day, unfortunately , the answer, i never received.
I was finding it hard to forget you , I still am.For that loving heart I saw in yours, no matter how you try to hide it, i cannot let you go away from me.I’m not sure if you are with someone and even if you are , all I care is about your happiness and well being.
My best friend did ask me ,will i be able to love someone else the way I loved you.At then I had no answer , but now i do have.
No i cannot.I can only love you, I cannot think of anyone else.This answer, i’M submitting to God Almighty, for I have finally made my choice , I have got the answer which i was looking for all these years.
I’m willing to forget all what happened, for I only care about that loving heart of yours. I need only you.
I do not know if you will read this, or even if you do read , will you understand is still anyone’s guess. I have brought this upon myself and I’m more happy to take this choice ; for i cannot move on from you.You might end up with someone better than me, but I’m happy, because I finally got the answer for the question which was haunting me for all these years.I’ll prefer to not marry, and if i do marry ,I humbly request The God Almighty to have you as my better half.
There was a saying by anonymous, that there is a real pleasure to wait for someone who doesn’t love you back.
I conclude my choice here, in the hope for God Almighty to show His Miracle once more.This answer is a written statement to God Himself, and to you of course. I cannot forget you. I’ll love you forever…….